"Day by day, you're becoming more and more aware that you've got your back to the wall, and you're standing ALONE. Nothing has changed Ricky. All you're doing is recreating the old scenarios of your own abuse, where you found out you were ALONE. This is a repeating cyclic pattern... and you need to LOOK at these patterns when you decide you want to be healed from all this pain and tragedy... and you CAN do it. You ARE a powerful man with a lot of WILL... but you're trapped inside that little boy's emotions - the one who had to take it alone while his own mother and father and aunts and uncles shoved a dildo up his arse until the blood started to trickle down his legs. Yes... a DEEP TRAGEDY !! And one that only YOU are able to revisit and heal from. You need to heal. You can't go around any longer in public with your heart torn wide open and gaping, from all the assaults that YOU bore as an innocent little child. It's up to YOU Ricky. Re-visit the assaults, and FIND Your Self, man... You're just screwing up a LOT of little children while you let yourself roam around the wastelands like a feral animal, ravaging at whatever you can find."